Let’s Be Honest

As I mentioned yesterday, one of the guys that went on the bachelor party in Vegas trip had previously lost 70 pounds.  He has since gained most of it back.  And, honestly, I can see why.  The weekend for him was fillied with alcohol, soda, food, and cigarettes.  Now yes, it was Vegas.  And yes, it was a bachelor party.  But no, I didn’t indulge in those choices.  So, I know it can be done.

But now here’s the honesty part: I’m afraid.

I’m afraid that I might evenntually gain it back.  I’ve never been “thin” or even “normal”.  I’ve never lost more than 30 pounds.  I’ve never done this before. 

So there’s a large part of me that is afraid that this success (and whatever more progress I make) will be erased by unhealthy living in the future.  I may be afraid, but I think it’s a healthy fear.  I think this feeling of trepidation about my health and my weight and my future makes me more attentive to that possibility and pitfalls.  I feel like I’m on this journey with my eyes wide open.  I know that I can’t predict the future.  I know that I may change.  But more than that, I know that I don’t want to change back into that 368 pound man I was.  And I know that God doesn’t want me to fall back into that unhealthy way of living.  And I know that Anna will do her best to support me and encourage me to keep this up.

It’s a journey that I’m we’re on.  I may not have a map, but I do have a good guide and great traveling partners.  Thanks for the company!

Wednesday:
15 minutes on elliptical
15 minutes on stair stepper
10 minutes on exercise bike
prayed
read the bible
read my devotion
date with Anna

Total:
30 minutes on elliptical
45 minutes on stair stepper
50 minutes on exercise bike
4 miles walked/ran
pray daily
read the bible daily
read my devotion daily
date with Anna

Remaining:
30 minutes on elliptical
15 minutes on stair stepper
10 minutes on exercise bike
11 miles walked/ran
15 miles biked
pray daily
read the bible daily
read my devotion daily
fast

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2 Responses to Let’s Be Honest

  1. In my humble opinion, and yes, it is just that, an opinion, I believe there are certain fears that are healthy. This is one of them. Never, ever, ever, ever lose sight of where you came from and the things that will take you back there. Never, ever, ever.

  2. Shelli Belly says:

    I'd yell SHOTGUN! for this journey but Anna is in that seat. We're here Beej. I think being mindful and intentional will protect us from the "slow fade" or the slow gain. You've changed so many of your routines that you're a new. You proved that on your Vegas trip.Great Job

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